College Life, God Talks

The “What Now”

Friends. Welcome to 2015! Also welcome to a new blog design. I’m still smoothing out some wrinkles, but I wanted to simplify and de-clutter. You know how every now and then you just get in the mood to organize the stuff under your bed? Is that just me? Okay. Either way, that’s what I wanted to do for the blog.

If we only communicate with each other through the blog, there is a pretty big thing you should know: I’m now a college graduate! This means I have a Bachelor of Arts in English (concentration: Creative Writing) and a minor in Communications.

IMG_4332Last month, I traded my college kid status for a tassel, some colorful cords, and an expensive piece of paper. In the world’s eyes, I’ve reached a milestone in the American dream. As my diploma says, I have “satisfied in full” the requirements needed to hold a degree and become an alumni of my school. I’m no longer earning my degree; I have it.

It didn’t come easy. It involved a lot of work and stress and busyness. A lot of please-help-me-pass-this-crazy-science-class prayers and what-am-I-doing-with-my-life moments. The actual processes of completing my senior portfolio, exit essay, last round of final exams, and all the pre-ceremony things that happened this semester required a lot of attention and effort, not to mention the workout my emotions are still undergoing.

The irony of it all is that all of the craziness happened at the beginning of the Christmas season: the season of joy and peace and silent nights. To be honest, I often let all of the anxiousness and busyness overshadow what I was supposed to be celebrating. Why? Well, for one thing, graduating college was a big thing for me.

But then, there’s this: the world says we’re supposed to be go-getters and achievers and difference makers. The world says we’re supposed to climb the ladder and earn more, do more, be more. The world wants bigger and better and bolder and brighter. The world goes after the tassel and cords and honors and notoriety. The expensive piece of paper I call a diploma (which is currently still in a big envelope on my bedroom floor) is supposed to give credibility to my skill set and add worth to me as a member of society.

The key word here is that it’s supposed to do those things. But I know from experience that Dean’s list certificates and award ceremonies and the approval of professors can still leave you feeling empty. It’s seems crazy, but it’s true. All of that is temporary and makes you feel like you constantly have to reach higher standards. And yet, it’s all a part of our society.

FullSizeRenderEven now that I’m graduated, degree in hand, I’m not done. Actually, I’m just beginning. I’m constantly asked, “So, what are you doing now?” or “What are your plans?” or the one that will never cease to amuse me: “You have an English degree and you’re not a teacher? What are you going to do with that?”

To answer those questions: I’m still sifting through details and options. But there are options, and the number of options I have are overwhelming.

So I’m learning that no matter where you’re at in life, there will always be something to overwhelm you. There will always be something to make you drop your head in your hands and say, “What now?” There will always be stressors vying for your attention, big expectations, and a whole ton of those “what now” questions.

But you know what? For all of the stress and uncertainties and questions, the One who so awesomely brought me through the college years will bring me through this next phase of life.

I’m one of those weird people who didn’t want high school to end. I loved high school (for the most part…) and I couldn’t imagine college being better. But guess what: I had the time of my life in college. So what’s next is trusting that God has some pretty great things lined up for Anna…and that He has plans that will leave me in awe and bring oh-so-much glory to Himself. I just have to be faithful in the small, everyday things while I watch those plans unfold.

I think that’s something we all need a reminder of; to be faithful in the waiting, in the listening, in the praying, and in the expecting. To realize the significance of doing what you’re called to do—no matter how tiny or ordinary those things may seem—and know it all works together for His glory.

God’s faithfulness never stops amazing me, so how could I not faithfully trust Him in the “what now”?

2015 is brimming with unknowns and uncertainties and “what now” questions. But it’s absolutely overflowing with possibility and promise. And I’m so blessed.

In His love,


FullSizeRender (1)“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness…
The Lord is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.”
– Lamentations 3:22-23;25


2 thoughts on “The “What Now””

  1. No pressure in life?? Anna, it never ends. Without a compassionate God, we would drown. Keep your faith and willingness to follow His leading. At times it won’t be easy, but in the end will be fulfilling.
    Love and prayers for now and the future.


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